Time...(or my bipolar spirituality)

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I had to get some things out, because I have had a huge burden lately about time and patience. I have been battling a lot lately with waiting on the Lord. I know His timing is always right and He will make clear His path, but when you are called to plant churches and minister to those who are hurting, its really hard to wait for Him to say 'GO!'

It's kind of like when you are a kid and you know your family is gonna go on vacation sometime during the summer but you have to wait forever. Of course its summertime and everything is great- no school, hanging out with friends, and of course, Popsicles, but you know there is something better coming up. The closer it gets the more you want to go. You want to be doing something way cooler than watching re-runs of Growing Pains and eating grilled cheese everyday.

That's what life has been like for me lately. I know God has all this amazing stuff He wants to do in my life, and I am all in- lets go, don't look back! But He is saying wait, sit, and absorb. Maybe some of you have had this state of spirituality. You want so bad to be somewhere else doing something that matters, but you know you are not ready.

I remember back a few years ago when my church, Day 3, first started. The worship band used to sing a song that, at the time, I didn't like. It was called 'There is a Joy in the Journey.' Now, I never liked the melody of the song, and therefore never really took time to know the words. But now, looking back, I realize that song was speaking so loud and I seemingly had cottons balls in my ears. The words went something like this: 'There is a joy in the journey. There's a light we can love on the way. There is a wonder and wildness to life. And freedom for those who obey'

Where in the world did that come from? And why did I never listen?

I'm learning- there is a joy in this journey to becoming the man God has created me to be, its found in Him.

I'm learning- there is a light I can look to when things seem dark, when my path is unclear, and when I have no idea what to do.

I'm learning- life is wild and wonderful...can I get an AMEN!?

I'm learning- that freedom from sin, from doubt, from fear, and from all my weakness comes when I simply obey God, whether it means waiting or going.

My walk with God is bipolar, it changes everyday. I would love to say I wake up every morning with a smile and an attitude of worship and love, but that is hardly the case. Some days I wake up tangled in self and sin. I wake up yearning for more than this. I wake up wanting the world instead of the Way. But I'm learning. I'm waiting. I'm giving my time to God and letting His timing direct my path, instead of my bipolar heart.

John Archibald Wheeler once wrote that, 'Time is what prevents everything from happening at once.'

So I'll give it time, because if I knew everything God has in store, I would miss everything that is happening to get me there.

Adam


PS- Jon always seems to hit the spot!